Infinite thoughts

Belief? Passion? What is it that drive me? Is there anything that I have done something unusual to live upto that belief? Hard questions .. and I really don't have answers to it. Am I leading an ordinary life? May be.. but I think the beliefs and passions have no co-relation with whether I am sub-ordinary, ordinary or extra-ordinary. Beliefs and passions are expected to set a goal for yourself in terms of achievements - monitory, prestige, self-satisfaction etc. I am in search of such things about myself -what drives me? What keeps me going everyday? Is there something I look forward to outside my day-job? Do I take out time to do something everyday no matter what? Do I readjust my priorities to give preference to some task/activity/hobby? Answers are coming negative.. all negative... Seems like a need for deep soul searching.. what is that one thing I'd do everything? And if it is not there, what will that one thing, I'd be most happy to take up? I hope to find answer soon...

The busy schedule keeps me so much busy that I don't even get time to ponder over what would I do if I get some time free :) So far, my default answer was - reading, and I used to claim that I can read anything that is in front of me, may it be a magazine or may it be a news daily or may it be novel. However, my recent observation is that this is not entirely true. The newspaper, I hardly get to read it and whenever I get it I just skim through it instead of reading. There is a huge stack of novels (thanks to Meghana) but I hardly read any of them. And magazines, it has been a long while I have bought any magazine. I think I like the inspirational or thought provoking or educational (really?) books rather than novels (Case in point - some of my recent read books - The Greatness Guide , The Case of a Bonsai Manager , Romancing the Balance sheet , 7 Habits of highly effective people (current read)). I really don't remember the last novel that I read, probably it was " The L...